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Quote of the Week

"That's not a bad word...hate and war are bad words, but fuck isn't."

- Judy Blume

Judy Blume is an American author. She mostly writes for children and young adults. Her books have always been a subject of controversy owing to sexual content which is deemed to be age-inappropriate by a lot of people. However, one can pretty much sum up her point by this quote of her. And oh boy, how veracious and contemporary she is.


When it comes to giving notice, I have an awful past record. However I am learning to be a little more consistent with time. After all my blog deserves to know that I am just temporarily going away, not abandoning the whole project and running away. I do have a habit of running away without giving a notice. I enjoy when I leave people wondering what happened to me. Oh how needy and screwed up am I? Er.. Let's not go there.
Anyway, coming to the actual point. I shall not be available the entire next week. I am off to some important mission. Hold thy breath. I'm not going to tell you what my 'important mission' is all about. It's a secret. I will tell you after I'm back. Sometimes I think I would make a good spy, given my insecure, paranoiac, secretive nature. For the time being, I can only divulge this much that this mission has been cancelled three times in the past already and I am eagerly waiting to find out whether fourth time's a charm. I have schedule…

Delusive Euphoria

If you asked me what I liked most about myself, I would say it's my sheer incapability of being sad for a prolonged period of time. I cannot stay sad for too long. Maybe a day or two. Or a week. After that the bout of sadness becomes so unbearable that I somehow fashion a way to cheer myself up. This could be a rebound relationship with a man or a new pair of shoes. This could be a short trip to somewhere. This could be a new book. This could be anything that might help me escape the heat of the reality for the time being. In fact, even an unlimited, high speed internet connection could make me feel euphoric about my life. Isn't it just another form of denial? Hell yes, is it. But isn't our sole existence revolving around the fundamentals of denial and delusional take on life? So shut up and let me be happy.

Weekend at Bandel

Whenever I hear the phrase long drive it immediately reminds me of my 2014 North Sikkim trip. That was one hell of a long drive. We left Gangtok at 12 noon and reached Lachen at 10 pm. That too while being stuck in a Sumo like a pack of cattle. The return journey was no less painful and after reaching Gangtok, I felt like kissing the M G Marg all the way up to my hotel room. It really felt like I was home after an ordeal. So yeah, I am not a big fan of long road trips. Not even if Tom Hiddleston was sitting behind the wheel.

However, short day trips are not so bad as they give me a false sense of travelling. Last week we went to see Bandel church. It was a part of our mission to cover all the historically important churches in and around Calcutta. What is life without a mission? Basilica of the Holy Rosary or the Bandel church was founded in 1599 by the Portuguese traders during the reign of Akbar. Bandel was a major trading port back in those days. After gaining Akbar's permissi…

Saint John's Church

We get to know so little about our near and dear ones even after having spent our entire life with them. That was the first thought that popped up in my head the moment I entered the humongous courtyard of Saint John’s Church. I have spent my entire life in Calcutta, and yet I had no idea about the existence of this beautiful piece of early colonial history of India in the very heart of my own city of joy. Just where the Kiran Shankar Road ends and Netaji Subhas Road begins its stretch towards the GPO, the intersection creates a little delta where about 232 years ago, the contemporary Governor General of India, Lord Warren Hastings laid the foundation stone of Saint John’s Church. The land was donated by Maharaj Nabakrishna Deb of Shovabazar.

I was awestruck the moment I saw the church building and its humongous spire, which happens to be 174 ft tall. In its days of glory, the Saint John’s Church was more famous among the natives as the ‘pathure girja’ or the stone church. It was bui…

Quote of the Week

"Where there's life, death is inevitable. Dying's easy; it's living that's hard. The harder it gets, the stronger the will to live. And the greater the fear of death, the greater the struggle to keep on living."

- Mo Yan | Big Breasts and Wide Hips

Mo Yan is a Nobel Laureate Chinese author. His real name is Guan Moye. Mo Yan is his pen name that means 'don't speak' in Chinese. In an interview Mo Yan explained that his pen name was inspired by a warning came from his parents not to speak his mind owing to China's political situation (read Communist oppression) during 1950s. He is a highly controversial figure in China. Some people argue that despite having written various books on sensitive political issues, Mo Yan was not banned by the Party because of his satirical take on all issues. In simple words, the Communist Party of China never took Mo Yan seriously. They, in fact, rather congratulated him officially on his Nobel Prize. On the other ha…

When I'm Quiet....

1. Contemplating life and its fragility.
2. Imagining about a fictitious situation with all possible outcomes.
3. Talking to myself.
4. Dreaming of the perfect cake that would taste like heaven and have zero calorie.
5. Pondering about what to wear next day.
6. Feeling sleepy.
7. Planning something.
8. Plotting someone's death. That someone has most likely pissed me off at one point of time or another.
9. Having PMS.
10. All of the above.

The Imperfect Reality

Anybody who regularly follows my blog must know that I am a complete emotional fuck up. I never tried to hide it. I blabber about my fucked up feelings quite openly here. Some might judge me for that, think I am stupid. I don’t care. It is my blog and I can talk about whatever I wish to. In my personal circle I’m (in)famous for being open and honest. I always speak my mind and most people are quite scared of me for that. Well, I really am oblivious to the trick of sugar-coating the truth. Truth hurts, but it actually helps in healing faster in the long run. Truth gives closure. And of all people, I know how vital it is to get a closure at times. All this years I have been seeking that one closure; but so far, I have failed miserably.
Personally I love reading screwed up relationship posts. It gives me a false sense of comfort and consolation. That I am not the only miserable loser out there. In fact, there are many, many such people all around the world and some of them even have the…

Love After Love

The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.

- Derek Walcott

Let's fall in love with our own selves all over again on this festival of love. We spend hours, days, months, years looking for something in others that has been hidden all along within ourselves. Let's forgive those unfortunate people who couldn't love us, who broke our heart, who made us hate ourselves. Let's celebrate the one true love that is us.

Happy Valentine's day to all my readers.

Quote of the Week

"My imagination functions much better when I don't have to speak to people."

- Patricia Highsmith

Remember the movie The Talented Mr. Ripley? Where a young and charming yet devilish Mr. Ripley (played by Matt Damon) leaves no stone unturned to achieve and maintain a high profile lifestyle? It was based on a book of the same name by Patricia Highsmith, an American author, famous for her psychological thrillers. Patricia Highsmith wrote 22 thriller novels including a series of 5 novels as Ripley their main protagonist. Highsmith was famous for her dark, macabre style tinged with sarcasm and dark humour. In her personal life, she was also a highly conflicted and controversial one. She was in relationship with many women and never enjoyed the company of men sexually. However, her desperate attempt at turning straight led her to a series of debacles with a string of men. Her friend Otto Penzler regarded her as a "mean, hard, cruel, unlovable, unloving person". In fac…

Midweek Retail Therapy

Nothing can cheer me up more than a bunch of shopping bags filled with freshly plundered treasure trove. And that pleasure grows tenfold when it involves valentine's day gifts. Well, I may not believe in valentine's day, but I surely do in gifts! Psychologically speaking, I don't know exactly where I am so severely damaged; but I do get orgasmic pleasure when I shop. And I do know that I am not the only one here who feels in that way. Sophie Kinsella wouldn't have written an entire book on it otherwise, and they wouldn't have made it into a movie.

I love visiting malls on weekdays. They remain less crowded and hence, peaceful. No queue in front of the momo shop. No queue in front of the trial room. Seriously, I hate it when I am waiting outside the trial room with a pile of clothes in my hand and some horrendously proportioned girl comes out wearing a body hugging dress looking like Harry Potter's inflated evil aunt, Marge. So my friend and I roamed about unin…

Pride and Prejudice

A very weird thing happened last night and that has left me wondering since then. Is it stupid to fight for something that does not directly concern you? Something that has nothing to do with you? Although you have no connection to it whatsoever but you can’t help defending its honour out of sheer love for it.
India is a nation of diverse culture. And officially we are quite proud of it. I remember in our 10th standard we would study a particular question in our History class. India: Unity in Diversity. Explain in your own words. It was one of the most important topics for the board exam and we would blabber on page after page praising our rich Indian heritage for accommodating different religions and cultures over the years and creating a large, diverse fraternity within the country. But is it really so? Are we all a bunch of inspired Indians who take a daily dose of multivitamin pill of nationalism and patriotism before starting our day?
Unfortunately, in reality, Indians are the m…

Quote of the Week

"People are no good when you're doing good. They want to bring you down. They want your blood. They want your bones. They want to consume you for your all, for your art.

I get you when you say you like to be alone. Most offer nothing, too much of what people like us don't need. Too much emptiness in their hearts and in their souls and minds. Things that don't interest the fire.

People like us should be rewarded, we see through the bullshit and always find something real."

- Robert M. Drake


Hello darling. Trouble sleeping?

Ok, his eyes are literally mesmerising. They actually sparkle.

God was high when he chiselled those cheekbones.

He made the kickass superheroes look pansy. He is the best villain. Ever.

He is the most handsome man on earth as well as on all nine realms.

And he is not just a pretty face.

I am definitely not someone who is overly fond of kids or even like the idea of having kids, but I can give birth just to see that face as the father of my baby hovering over my bedside in the hospital.

Ok Tom, you win. I'm ready to have kids.

I am not sure whom I love more. The character played by him or the man himself.

I would do ANYTHING to replace Cara Delevingne in that picture.

.. Or that cat.

Could I just spread him on a cracker and eat him?

You have been a bad bad girl and I am going to punish you.

But I am also going to make you laugh until your stomach hurts.

He loves dogs. That alone is enough reason to sleep with him.

Cuteness overload.

Be it a tuxedo,…